I want to run to you...

I know that when you look at me
There’s so much that only you can see
But when you pause and take the time
I know in my heart you’d find
A little girl who’s scared sometimes
Who isn’t always strong?
I know you see the hurt in me
I feel so all alone

I wanna run to you
I wanna run to you
Won’t you hold me in your arms
And keep me safe from harm
I wanna run to you
I wanna run to you
Lord, please stay
And don't ever take your love away

Each day, each day I play the role
Of someone always in control
But at nights, I come home and turn the key
There’s nobody there, seems only you care for me
Oh! What’s the sense
Of trying hard to find your dreams
Without you Lord, to share it with
Tell me what does it mean

I wanna run to you
I wanna run to you
Won’t you hold me in your arms
And keep me safe from harm

I wanna run to you
I wanna run to you
Lord, please stay
And don't ever take your love away


Oh, I need you here, I need you here
To wipe away my tears
To kiss away my fears
No, if you only knew
How much I wanna run to you
And I wanna run to you
Lord, won’t you hold me in your arms
And keep me safe from harm

I’ll run to you
But if I come to you
Lord please stay
Don't ever take your love away...

;lakjdfanj.... that's how I feel

Lost in a feeling
not even love could explain
you got me comprehending stuff
that's never even made it to my brain
I wish I could keep up with you
But you move to fast
Still I struggle to keep up
Slow down? I wouldn't dare ask
could I keep you? no better yet
I'll ask could you keep me
I pray the answer is yes
but if not I could survive just off the memories...
I know where we're headed
But I also know I can't get there without you
could you keep on whispering
I'm fascinated by your particular dialect... Truth
I'm rambling now,
can't think of what to say so I'll just stop
but I know this poem won't end here
because you're forever in my thoughts...

NOT FUNNY!!!!

This is so hilarious... I can't stop laughing!

Mission Impossible...

What would you do if you knew it was impossible to fail?
Now do it...

one day, but not today...

True love doesn't rush, it always says we can wait...
Marriage is the ultimate sacrifice to some,
but without it
the risk is just too big to take...
So one day may not be soon,
it may be a tough battle to fight,
but I vow that when I do make that choice...
I'm gonna do it right!

Youth on a mission...

So yesterday I went to our district's annual youth conference and I thought it was going to be just another church service. There were only three ten-minute speakers but all three of them challenged me and touched on some things that I need to work on in my life...

First and foremost...Mr. Danny Cage, my youth pastor gave his first public sermon and if I can brag for a minute he did his thang... Like he always says, "It's All Jesus!" Danny talked about defining moments in our walk with God and how we must be sensitive to other people's defining moments because although we may not be aware of it the things we do could drastically affect someone else's walk with God. He also talked about not being afraid to be saved in the midst of people who weren't, he touched on the fact that you don't have to be a square to be saved and that instead of following the crowd you should continue to "DO YOU."

The next speaker was a young lady who is a member of Unity COGIC. She talked about handlin business... She read the parable of the men with talents and how the two men who multiplied there talents were given much more but the man who saved his one was stripped of just that one and was punished for not multiplying it. She illustrated the fact that God has given us many different skills and abilities and instead of just sitting on them and not making the most out of what we have, we need to mix them with a lil something and spit it back even better. We should be multiplying the Kingdom of God with the gifts that were given to us.

Last but not least was a gentlman from Seattle International Church. He was the Youth Pastor of that church and it shocked me to know that he was only 21. That was a blessing to me, because it seems like everywhere I look the youth pastors and youth leaders are 25 and up. Being a youth leader and only being 20 years old that bothers me because it seems like I never have someone my age to turn to [don't get me wrong I have excellent leadership I couldn't ask for anything greater] but it was just a blessing to know that there are others my age who are living this lifestyle and enjoying it!-- but back to the lesson... He talked about a new breed of Christians where we know the gospel songs and can sing and dance during praise and worship, but we also know all the lil wayne lyrics and all the new dances, we go to the club then we go to church the next morning, we might read one scripture a day and pray for three minutes but we can text message and myspace for hours at a time. He talked about myspace [and not the social networking site] and how God is wondering why is it that we've allowed men, and music, and myspace, and facebook, and everything else into my[His]space? That was really touchy for me, because I must admit I can read juicy stories on blogspot all day, and I can text my boo all day long but that time was once spent meditating on scriptures and listening to gospel music and just being in relationship with God. And although I have maintained a saved lifestyle my relationship with God needs some work. I need to go back to the place where I woke up in the morning and He was all I could think of, and as I walked through my day I was just amazed at How amazing He was... God has been so good to me, and I need to act like it. It's kind of like in a romantic relationship when you're dating someone and they are just so amazing and you just don't want to do anything wrong, you want to look good and smell good, and say all the right things, and just be everything they want because they're everything you need... That's how I feel about God, and the message-all three messages pushed me back into a position to act like it...

AWWWWW...

These are the moments in life that I live for!!!

just rambling on...

Current mood: unproductive avoiding cleaning my room...


Desire is desire no matter where you are

The sun can not bleach is

Nor the tide wash it away





No matter where you go

You'd wish you had stayed

after all the grass is only greener

where it's watered and maintained

You can escape the critiques of others

And the constant nagging

But there's no where you can go

When it starts comin from within

What if I'd done this

Or looked at it this way

Maybe I could've said, "I'm sorry"

Or offered forgiveness anyway

You never quite know

what the outcome may be

so think twice before you decide to leave



"I don't really need to look

very much further,

I don't wanna have to go

where you won't follow

I'm holdin back again

this passion inside

I can't run from myself

There's no where to hide"

I just wanna say...

thank you Lord for all you've done for me!

When He's all you have, you realize He's all you need

Just to sit at your feet
hear your voice clearly speak
lifts me out of defeat
in You I'm complete

you are all I ever wanted
you're all I ever need
Nothing else matters
No, nothing
Than seeing you Jesus
Seeking the master
The one who reigns over my life
No nothing
Nothing even matters
At all...

Be the change you want to see in the world...

So I had my zune on shuffle the other day and "Man in the Mirror" by MJ came on and it's been on repeat ever since then... I know I probably sound real soft right now but I think it's a song we should all stop and listen to every now and then for a reality check...

I've been a victim of
A selfish kind of love
It's time that I realized
There are some with no home
And not a nickel to loan
Could it be really me
Pretending that they're not alone
A willow deeply scarred
Somebody's broken heart
And a washed out dream
They follow the pattern of the wind,
You see
Because they got no place to be
That's why I'm starting with me
I'm starting with the [wo]man in the mirror
I'm asking her to change her ways
And no message could've been any clearer
If you wanna make the world a better place
Take a look at yourself and make a change!